Sept 16, 2014 FreeWrite on Land and Identity/Personality

Another attempt to get back to writing every day as a healing practice. One of my mentors recently noted that many of the issues/situations that we have been attempting to address/interrupt through our work in Detroit appear to intersect at our new house and the experiences we’re having while settling in here. What follow is stream of consciousness focused on a few of these issues. ~G

LAND: Until my 30s I swore up and down that I would never own anything. That to own house or a land was a weakness, a vulnerability that my lifestyle would not partake in. Being a product of disposable culture and mandatory transience, I learned to thrive like a plant with a short root structure, landing for a certain amount of time and then, typically using the energy/excuse of a storm or turbulence, to roll on to the next.

I’m nearly certain it is the case for many born in the late 60s early 70s, that the internal and external transitions occurring between 30 and 40 years were intense. I’m also certain that the post-millennial decade, with towers falling on one end and the economic crash on the other shifted me and many others, regardless of age, greatly.

My experiences between the ages of 30 and 40 were vast, but for the current project I’m more interested in outcomes rather than anything that could be considered nostalgia.

What I want to focus on here is the shift from transience to permanence, the shift to attempting to participate rather than manipulate, the shift from being an extreme individual striving to dominate reality to this empathic, vulnerable, and often angry being before you.

While my time this morning is coming to a close, I propose and will explore more the existent notion that our connection to land/water is directly connected to our identity.  The idea of living out the rest of my days in this house, in this one space rather than moving hither and thither, is doing more to ground my personalities, my beliefs and to solidify my intentions more than any other practice, ritual, or therapy that I have pursued. Gratitude.